Tuesday, January 29, 2008

praying for you.

I heard this song called praying for you by Lecrae today and i love it! Makes so much sense. Since i can't think of anything creative to write, here are the lyrics :)

Father God, I'm prayin' to you for somebody, who knows you Lord but just hasn't, hasn't been seein' you in the right view lately, Hear me out...
Father, I'm prayin' for a friend he and I are pretty close, and out of all my friends for this one I'm concerned the most. He say he readin' daily but he ain't really learnin'. He been in church but say that he ain't moved by any sermon. His face weak, he ain't prayed in a week, he wake up and just weep with his face in the sink Lord, you gotta help my man, I'm prayin' for him daily, he ain't sinned but it just seem as if he goin' crazy. He say he feelin' trapped, can't even head up the mall coz every lady's half-dressed temptin' him to lust and fall. He keep the TV off, videos just make him feel that he ain't really nothin' without money, girls and shiny wheels. The other day he told me that he felt less a man coz he ain't have a five-year plan or a piece of land and man it's crazy coz his family think so much of him, plus he got a godly wife who always showin' love for him but he's strugglin', even though he talk to me, I tell him what to do but he don't listen when he oughta' be. I'm scared for him coz there's people that look up to him, he got some younger siblings who been changed by what he's done for them but is it done for him, Lord don't let it be, if he don't wanna talk to you then Father hear from me, is it done for him, Lord don't let it be, if he don't wanna talk to you then Father hear from me...

Yeah, I'm prayin' for you, yeah, I'm prayin' for you Yeah, I'm prayin' for you, yeah, yeah, I'm prayin' for you...

God, his condition is worsen since we were last conversed and I'm with him now and he ain't doin' well and this I'm certain. He say he tryna' trust you, doesn't wanna disgust you but he was in the mist of sinners and did not discuss you and just today his anxiety's got the best of him, he knows Christ but for hours refuse to rest in Him, he's not the best of men but Lord I know he really loves you and I can't understand why lately he's not thinkin' of you. People trust this dude, you could crush this dude, Father he needs more of you I pray you touch this dude, what can I say to him? I'm determined to pray for him Father empty and brake him I pray you'll just have your way with him, coz there's a change in him and the effects are strong, I pray you open up his heart before the next song and when he gets home, I pray he'll open up the sixty-six book love letter you wrote and soak it up coz he ain't hearin' You and he ain't feelin' me and God I know it's killin' You because it's killin' me and matter of fact there's somethin' else he's concealin' see, the person that I've been prayin' about is really me...
Yeah, I'm prayin' for you, yeah, I'm prayin' for you Yeah, I'm prayin' for you, yeah, yeah, I'm prayin' for you...

Sunday, January 20, 2008

some new year tag

Bungi tagged me. So here goes..
1. What did I learn?
I learnt that IT is not impossible. IT can be anything. Well if it really is impossible then too bad but if someone has done if before, don't think you can't cos you can. Even if someone hasn't, you can still try...and maybe succeed.
I also learnt about a lot of things that i need pages to explain about. So maybe later.
2. What did I accomplish?
My B.E degree!! hehe.. yes, i'm quite obsessed with it cause i really suffered for my final year project!
And i got my driving license!
3. What would I have done differently?
A lot of things.
4. What did I complete or release?
My final year project.. lol..
5. What were the most significant events of the year past?
Finishing college, Israel, turning 21(officially old now), Malaysia,Japan, Pune, spending time with family and friends.
6.What did I do right?
I didn't give up.
7. What were the fun things I did?
I'm not a fun person. I don't do fun things.
8. What were my biggest challenges/roadblocks/difficulties?
Biggest challenge was definitely my final year project.
9. How am I different this year than last?
Its only been like 20 days into the new year. Ask me in another 10 months.
10. For what am I particularly grateful?
It may sound cliche but first God and then my family and all my friends.

what then?

I was thinking how sometimes you talk to someone, you laugh with them, you share feelings and emotions with them and you consider them your friend and then one day you realize you don't really know much about them. Stuff about their family, about their personal life, about their spouses/partners, about their children. Nothing you don't know about them at all. And then you feel a bit annoyed cause you share stuff with them and tell them what's going on with you but then they don't do the same. A close friend was telling me this. How she thought she knew this guy cause they spoke often, she enjoyed talking to him, she thought he was funny, understanding and a great friend. Nothing more than a friend but yes, a friend. And then she found out he's actually married (he's from another country and came here for work), has kids and all these stuff she never knew cause he never spoke about them. And she's wondering why. Well i'm not sure why but sometimes i am like that too. I listen to others, i talk to them about their problems, and well i just listen more. I don't talk about me. I don't tell them what i'm going through. Sometimes i feel that i don't need to talk about my problems or what's happening as most people would not be interested. And i'm most of the time not in the mood to talk about myself personally. Sure i talk... A LOT but not to everyone about myself but rather general stuff or common issues. So maybe this person felt the same. Maybe. What do you think?

Saturday, January 19, 2008

happy new year

It feels good to be missed..lol!!
I haven't logged on in ages! I even forgot what my blog looked like. I spoke to Boongi this morning and she said i need to check my blog and being a faithful trustworthy friend who listens to what elders say i signed in.... and i do not know what to write..
Well, i definitely prefer texting to calling. I made up my mind on that.