Monday, July 23, 2007

i don't know!

I feel like i want to or have to write something.But my mind is totally blank.There is so much inside of me that i feel like shouting out but i know i cannot.
I don't know why i'm feeling so weird...maybe i do know but i don't know if that's exactly the reason to the way i feel.
Ok i'm going to stop feeling weird.What's the point anyway?It's your own doing and then you just end up feeling lousy.So i'm going to learn to command my brain to snap out of its sorry state whenever it gets into it(like all the time).So how am i going to learn to do that?Here's how:
1.Brain,stop it!
2.Brain,don't get into this mode.I do NOT like it.
3.Brain,You're not making me feel good.
4.Brain,you're the one who gave me the stupid idea to do whatever it is that made me feel this way,so make it go away.It's your fault.
5.Heart(poor brain,taking all the blame),your'e no better than brain.
6.Heart,you think too much(the brain is helping).
7.Heart,right now it's totally your fault.
8.Heart,just pump blood,ok.Don't do anything else.
9.Heart,stop it with all the mushy feelings.
10.Hands,stop typing,your'e not making any sense.

You know what,i'm actually feeling totally ok now.I'm must be a genius and i did'nt even know!!My brain doesn't help me at times.

Sunday, July 08, 2007

Random things about me

Here are some random things about me that you may or may not know:

1.I have a really bad phobia for birds.Any bird.
2.I used to believe i was from the sun(this was when i was really young though.I used to get these deja vu moments when i saw the sun,sarbath(this orange drink) and jelebi(an orange sweet)).
3.I was once called by the principal for kicking a guy.He told his parents and they came to school to complain.(the stupid guy did not tell his part of the story which was tickling my legs for which he got kicked.So i told the principal this infront of his parents..i guess you can imagine who got yelled at).
4.I hate it when people tickle me.
5.n i dnt realy lyk it wen ppl typ lyk tis.cs it taks 2 mch tym to dcode.
6.My friends and i used to prank call people a LOT when we were in school.And we used to prank e-mail and chat with people pretending to be others.
7.When i first heard about euthanasia,i thought it was about the youth in asia.
8.I still remember the name and user id of the first person i ever "chatted" with online(it was using aol messanger under anju's screen name,i was 11 or 12).
9.I have a tendency to be attracted to men who's sexual orientation is favored towards other men.
10.I once saw something else and thought they were balloons.And i was not too discreet about it(I was only 10!).
11.I changed my name for a bried period of time when i was in 7th or 8th standard.
12.I used to be obssessed with barbies..i still quite like them.
13.I wanted to be a fashion designer when i was in 12th standard(most of my math notes then had many of my drawings of clothes!).
14.Before i joined college,i had practised the speech i would give when i got my best outstanding/university first/best extracurricular activities/best overall student award(I got none of the above).
15.I used to have a HUGE crush on salman khan when i was younger.
16.My first crush was jonathan knight(i bet i didnt even know what a crush was then but i thought he was very good looking).
17.After watching the movie stigmata,i imagined that happening to me and thought it was quite cool.
18.I played the evil queen who wanted John the baptist's head when i was in kindergarten(I still don't know how they could make someone with such an innocent face to play such a role).
19.I used to have lots of pen pals from all over the world during the years 1996-2001.I still have all their letters.
20.I started writing a book when i was 13...I wrote 2 chapters.I found it when i was 16 or 17 and almost died of embarrasment!

That's all i can think of now!

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

something to write about

I was reading the news on yahoo! the other day and i found an article about Sania mizra and Shahar Peer who were going to play together and how some of the muslims and jews actually protested cause its not right for a muslim and jew to play together,it might cause problems,how it has caused problems in the past and blah blah blah.I thought it was ridiculous!Its about tennis!!!NOT about islam,NOT about judaism and not even that much about Sania or Shahar!!It's about the game they're going to play.But then again i guess the press,the reporters,the newspapers need something to talk about,so why not talk about this?OH MY,a muslim and a jew!Playing together!*Shocker*
Now since i started this blog i kind of imagine how reporters or newspaper/magazine writers might feel(i'm not saying i'm even anywhere close to their level) cause sometimes you feel like you just HAVE to write something.Like at times,i look at some of my posts(maybe this one)and think,"why did i write that?".And i realized i wrote just for the sake of writing SOMETHING!It didn't matter at that time if the post was crap..So i guess i'm actually quite a hypocrite for starting off all annoyed with those tabloid people...cause i'm kinda like them..on a much smaller and less scandalous base!And i guess i better stop writing before i throw in more crap!